武汉加油! 昨晚在回家的路上……
[英] 尼尔·常诚·科拉克 (Neil Changcheng Clarke)
我看到无数带着口罩的亚洲人被周围的人用恐惧和轻蔑的目光盯着
我看到了耸人听闻的新闻文章和海报，尽管并没有明显的威胁
我在推特、脸书和ig上看到了一些评论和表情包，说这是中国人的报应，他们糟蹋环境或人权问题，然而这些根本都不是中国人的错
我看到人们把中国人在世界各地的存在描述为“侵扰”
“天哪，他们（中国人）无处不在”
我没有看到对108位死者的悲痛之情
我没有看到任何#Pray4Wuhan（”为武汉祈祷”热搜标签）
我没有看到任何（西方）人关于病毒的筹款活动来帮助武汉
只有散布恐惧情绪的人
指手画脚的人
将种族歧视伪装成政治问题的人
只有仇恨。
当我回到家是我开始哭了
我为我的同胞哭泣，他们在过去的200年里经历了如此多的痛苦
我为我的同胞哭泣，他们被殖民，被屠杀，被侵略，被欺骗，被强奸，被非人化
我为我的同胞哭泣，他们终于开始从伤痛中恢复并开始走向繁荣，但世界却称我们为害虫
我哭了，世界忘记了几十年前中国是多么的糟糕，现在他们反而把中国抹黑成富有的帝国主义侵略者，仿佛我们才是那个花了几百年四处殖民的国家
我为那些被扣上“被洗脑”帽子的中国支持者们哭泣，（他们说我们被洗脑）却转身投票给特朗普、英国退欧、鲍里斯（不知谁才被洗脑，他们有什么资格说我们）
我哭了，因为一些流亡海外的反华中国人为了政治争斗毫不犹豫地选择了背弃自己的人民
我为我认识的很多所谓 “觉醒”的人一边唾骂种族主义，一边又把他们对中国人的偏见包装成地缘政治或人权问题
我为我的家人和朋友哭泣
我哭了，为我生命中有幸遇见的所有勇敢的、富有同情心的、勤奋的、灵活的、有趣的、幽默的、勇敢的、聪明的、有才华的、无私的、慷慨的、豁达的、明智的、有创造力的、宽容的，超级棒的中国人而哭泣
我为那些在过去的六天里被迫呆在屋里的人们哭泣，他们在窗户里欢呼和歌唱，他们制作tiktok（抖音）和meme （梗图）乐观地看待他们的处境，尽管形势严峻，他们依然坚强
我哭了，因为我外婆上周从中国回来，她有一点小感冒，即使第二天好了，她仍然决定把自己锁在房间里，避免我们在接下来的14天接触，即使她被感染的几率很小，即使她也想和我们一起庆祝农历新年
我哭了，因为一些流亡海外的反华中国人为了政治争斗毫不犹豫地选择了背弃自己的人民
我哭了，因为还有多少人死于这种病毒，又有多少人处于危急状态，可能无法活到明天
我哭了，因为他们的故事永远会是未知的，他们的人生泥牛入海，灰飞烟灭，因为西方人根本不在意中国人，除非食物，政治，或着谁会制造他们所有的产品
“天啊，他们无处不在”
是啊。我为此自豪。
我们会度过这场悲剧，如过去一样。我们度过了之后会变得更强大，如过去一样。
这不是该害怕的事情
是该庆祝的。
武汉加油!
注：英文写作和中文翻译为英国伦敦国王学院学生，高中毕业后曾在国内学了一年中文。
27/01/2020
On the way home last night
by Neil Changcheng Clarke
I saw countless Asians in face masks stared at with fear and disdain by those around them
I saw scaremongering news articles and posters about what could happen over here despite the clear lack of threat
I saw comments and memes on twitter fb and ig about how this is karma for the Chinese being disgusting or fucking up the environment or the human rights issues that are no fault of the Chinese people
I saw people describing Chinese presence across the world as an ‘infestation’
‘God they’re everywhere’
I didn’t see any outpourings of grief for the 108 who have died
I didn’t see any #Pray4Wuhan hashtag
I didn’t see any viral fundraisers to help Wuhan
Just fearmongering
Just finger pointing
Just racism disguised as politics
Just hate
When i got home i started crying
I cried for my people who have been through so much pain over the last 200 years
I cried for my people who have been colonised, massacred, invaded, lied about, raped and dehumanised
I cried for my people who have finally started to recover and blossom only for the world to call us an infestation
I cried for how the world forgets how fucked china was just a few decades ago so they can paint this narrative that Chinese people are rich imperialists as if we were the ones who spent over a century colonizing the world
I cried for my people who are called brainwashed by the same people who voted for trump, Brexit and Boris
I cried for how Sinophobia is so normal these days
I cried for how the Chinese diaspora is so quick to throw our own people under the bus for clout
I cried for how easy it is for so many ‘woke’ people i know to spit racism and dress it up as geopolitics or human rights concern
I cried for my family and friends
I cried for all the brave, compassionate, hardworking, resilient, funny, brave, intelligent, talented, selfless, generous, open-minded, wise, creative, tolerant, wonderful Chinese people I’m blessed to have in my life
I cried for my people who have been locked indoors for the past six days but are cheering and singing from the windows, who are making tiktoks and memes to make the best of their situation and staying strong despite how horrifying shit is
I cried for my grandma who came back from china last week with a slight cold and how even though she got better the next day she still decided to Lock herself in her room and avoid us for the next 14 days on the slimmest chance she somehow contracted the coronavirus even though she wanted to celebrate lunar new year with us
I cried for how many more of these people there are that have died because of this virus, or how many more are in critical condition and won’t live to see tomorrow
I cried for how their stories will go untold their lives will be unknown because no one in the west cares about Chinese people if it isn’t about politics or food or whose going to manufacture everything we use
‘God they’re everywhere’
Yes, we are. and I’m glad.
We will get through this like we always have. and we will come out of it stronger like we always have.
and that’s not something to fear
That’s something to celebrate.
Come on 武汉加油!
27/01/2020